Thursday, December 4, 2014

I am slowly going crazy, crazy going slowly am I

Hi. Life is busy. I am busy. There isn't much more to say than that. I have a to do list that will never, ever, ever be finished. Every day is a choice in sanity. Sanity is a bad word for it. Prioritizing. Let's say that. What HAS to be done, what needs to be done and what do I want to do? The has to's  usually get done, and then it is a decision of wants and needs with any extra time. Sometimes the needs being done are more of a relief to just have them done than doing a want. Sometimes that isn't the case at all. I know that there just isn't enough time in the day for everything and that is ok. Until I get a maid my house will not be clean. Even if it was a need and want, I still don't have enough time in the day to do it all.

I am loving being home with Isla. A friend is going back to work next week after being home for two years. It has made me really reflect on my time and life lately.  I know part of the reason I have no time is because I work 30 hours a week, but I love it that work nights and naps and weekends so I can cuddle in the morning and pick kids up in the afternoon. I know my schedule often makes things waaaaay more stressful for me. I never quite know which hat I am supposed to be wearing, but it gives me time with my kids that I will never have again so I love it. 

We are off to isla's weight check and then dinner and homework and I am off to work. I need to put on some real pants I guess. 

Saturday, October 25, 2014

This week in pictures

Boo at the zoo

Can you smell the incense?

Update on Ava and her focus. I went to conferences this week and her teacher doesn't think it is an issue at all. She thinks she was having adjustment issues with the new baby and sharing the attention. She is working more so on changing her attitude about school. That doesn't mean that we haven't changed some things at home. Bed time has been moved up and I have been getting up earlier. That has helped a lot! We have also been packing different things for lunch and snack and having better breakfasts. 

So overall the special diet thing has gone slowly. The kids do fairly well during the week but are handed candy right and left or fed velveeta shells and cheese on the weekends. Based on the conferences I don't think it is a must do, but we are trying to eat for health overall.  For the kids I want them to be getting the most out of their food. I want to teach them good habits. I want them to continue to like vegetables.  For Justin and I, we want to lose weight and also get the most out of our food. We had been eating better foods a couple years ago but fell off the wagon due to costs and laziness. It really does take an effort to eat well or to at least re-learn how to eat and shop.

A friend of ours recommended the maximized living nutrition plan. I read the book and we are starting it this week. I have been trying to shop and meal plan.  I have been making and buying whatever is easy for months and I figure it is a good time to start a new plan when trying to start cooking again.  So the moral of the story: we are cutting out most processed things. Kids get grains, just whole grains. Organic when possible fruits and veggies, and grass fed animal  products. Whole fat and organic dairy products. No calorie counting. We will see what happens. I will report back. I generally make dinners without processed foods so it isn't that huge of a lifestyle change. Breakfast and snacks are the big ones.

Add all this to my cloth diapering, I am one big crunchy, granola.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

I had a post

I had a post almost written and then I got distracted by puking and it got deleted. Sadness and woe.

Ava has been sick with the pukes since late last night. The carpet won't be the same, I have done an extra load of laundry and lots of surfaces have been wiped down. I have to say that her constant whimpering and keening because she wants to eat might be what does me in.  Isla has had a cold for the last week or so and the last two days have been bad with her cough. She seems to have made the turn last night and is improving. Today has been nothing but sleep though. 

Ava has tech week and the play performances next weekend. I honestly can't wait for it to be over. I like our less involved life. Hopefully she is well enough to get to rehersal tomorrow night. 

Isla is doing a lot of growing with all of her sleeping. I am starting to sell off some of her newborn cloth diapers. I have also found a favorite that will last us for a while. I generally avoided the Velcro style but it turns out Justin wanted them. We are starting quite the collection of bottom bumpers. I am also not planning on sticking with any type of microfiber as she gets older. They just stink. 

Look at those chunks in her new diaper.

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Last post continued

My random thoughts while Ava does her homework. 

I have completely given up on the blanket I have started twice and started a new project. It is fall colored and will be awesome. I am just knitting at the pace of a snail. 

Isla is already 3 weeks old. I am loving this baby stage. Maybe it is because I know how short it is. Maybe she is so easy. She does cry but not often. She is just sweet and cuddly. She pukes a lot and likes me to hold her. I go back to work in a month. I will probably ease back in the week before with doing work at home so it isn't a huge shock to my routine. I am lucky enough to be able to not go back full time during the day. I will only be in the office one day a week but even that seems like a lot right now. 

Rhys started dance class this past weekend. He is supposed to be in hip hop but it turned out to be hip hop and beyond, which is all dance forms. First class was not anything remotely hip hop like. He is the only boy and clearly the oldest. I don't think he expected to be dancing to the little mermaid. He participated except for when he was supposed to dance alone. He looked embarrassed a lot. He said it was fun but he has also said he doesn't want to go back. There is an all boys hip hop class but he is too young by a couple months and they wouldn't let him in. I'm hoping he wants to continue next session when it can be more of what he wants To do. 

Random picture of Rhys at the back to school bash last weekend.

The time has come

Yes Isla is three weeks old today, but I have other kids and other things on my mind. Lots of other things. I wonder how random this will get? I guess we will see how long my thumb holds out. I am posting from my phone while nursing. It is a talent. 

Anyway, the last few years ava has had some issues with focusing in school. I did too, so did Justin so this isn't a real shock. So far it hasn't really been a problem and she can work around it. Her teacher has already mentioned it this year and we have noticed it getting in the way of homework. It is hard to know what the cause is. Is it her not wanting to do the work? Is it too much noise in the house? Is it an actual problem?  So the first step we are going to take, I think, is a specific diet. I have heard it helps. I have also hurt it is a load of crap. More or less it is cutting out fake stuff. I don't think it can hurt anything to try.  Anybody have any experience with this? 

Thumb is done. More later. It is season premier week and I haven't watched anything because I am totally hooked onScandal on Netflix. What does that say?

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Life is like a box of chocolates

Or in our case, nights are like a box of chocolates, you never know what you are going to get. We have now had 7 nights at home with Isla. We have not had more than 2 that are the same. First two nights were pretty much no sleep nights. She wanted to be held all night. She wanted to eat every hour. (As I am writing this, I am completely blanking on what order the nights went in and if I am even thinking of different nights. Isla has eaten my brain.) We didn't get to bed until 3 or 4am and we still had to get up to get kids to school. Then we had the two miracle nights of non-stop sleep. I had to wake her up around 4am to eat and the other night she for up at 5am. She also was fine sleeping in her bed. The only downside of the timing of this was it was when my milk came in, so she slept, I didn't.  Then we had two nights of normal baby sleep. Up every 3 hours to eat and going right back to sleep. Even when she woke up, she didn't really cry, just clearly was up and wanting to eat. Then there was last night. Keep in mind she slept all day, only getting up to eat and was awake and alert for about 45 minutes total. We were trying to go to bed around 9:30. She was wide awake, but it shouldn't be long lived, right? Wrong! She would doze for about five minutes and demand to be fed again. This went on for 3 hours. She has also decided she won't take a pacifier. Why should she when she has me???? She will cry for 10 minutes with nothing working to get her to stop. I let her latch on and 15!seconds later she is fine. She won't eat anything. She will just want to sit there. After the three hour eating marathon, I was pretty positive there was absolutely nothing left. She ended up getting about an ounce out of a bottle but only because Justin gave it to her. She won't take a bottle from me. Justin says she is too little to know the difference. Ha! That is why she acts like I am trying to poison her with the bottle. She did sleep for almost 5 hours once she finally fell asleep, so it wasn't awful, just a very long first part of the night. 

Now some pictures from yesterday.

Rhys made her a bracelet. 

I walk into the livingroom and find Ava holding her like this, swaying in front of the tv, like it was no big deal.

* I update from my phone so formatting at be weird.